Unspoken words.

do u think i'm happy? no, i'm not. what you see is just the outside, not the within. i'm seriously upset over my results still. gosh. it wasn't what i had expected to the least. now, whenever people ask me about my results, i feel like a loser. i know i shouldn't feel so, but i can't help it. please don't blame me. everyone around me had done well, except for me, really. maybe i didn't put as much effort as they had, maybe its just that i don't have the ability to achieve good results. frankly, i don't even know why. i hope i can be able to just recover now, stand on my feet and walk on. but what seems to lie ahead is an unforeseen path. what can i do? its my fate and destiny to be like that. i'm really sad, but i guess i will get over it sooner or later? don't have to console me, its not gonna work. this is not some emo post, i just wanna let out my feelings. its pretty hard. damn, i shall buck up from now on then. will cheer up. so please, friends and buddies, no worries. thanks for your care and concern dudes, if not for you all, i may be even more vexed. thanks lots to my friends. especially to my buddies (: including daojun, my buddy in JJ. thanks!

goodbye.