So Tough to Live Happily.

sigh. it's so hard to stay happy. i can't seem to be an obedient boy. that's bad. anyway, i'm really sorry i am an imperfect child in terms of personality. it's hard to compromise, really. =( i'm not trying to be sarcastic here and i have no intention of injecting any sarcasm in this post. it's just words from the heart.

sometimes, this unhappiness makes me really unlike myself. i stay silent and try to enjoy tranquility but it's always broken, so easily. sorry, i'm utterly apologetic. i don't know what to do. i have to deal with this and also examination stress.

stress is getting me to nowhere now. it makes me so frustrated of the books around me that i try to run away from it. i lose focus easily. i hate stress. it makes me turn into someone i don't like, i don't desire. one day, i'm afraid it will be so hard to tolerate any longer. all these. i will try my best to fight them, though.

those hard glares, builds hatred in me. i must simmer down quick. i hate all these. everything. It's okay, people always say time heals everything and remain optimistic. i mean, it will happen, but everything that heals leave something behind. optimism cannot be applied in every aspect of our life. but, i hope it will happen to me that i can forget the past, and let bygones be themselves.

when i get sad, reminiscing occur like flipping pages in my head. all of it just comes back. sorrowful ones, from all elements of my life. i shall put an end to all these nonsense quick and move on. sigh.

i hate stress. it's engulfing me. i hate hatred, it's the bud of evil.

ah, bye.

Random Picture.
remember those golden moments? unforgettable.
NCC Dining-In 07.
Me, Nick, Shannon, Eugene, Nicholas.